Do we pay enough attention to our heart wishes?

I´ve arrived in a new time zone, at a new level in my life. 

And I have to say this is exciting and relaxing at the same time.

I wish I could tell the exact time when it happened. But, as usual, everything works into each other, a lot of small pieces create the big picture at the end. And, of course, this is not the the end and for sure the big picture is not revealed yet. It´s a journey, a steady progress. 
Though at the moment I am pretty happy with the momentary stage of my life. 

The most significant change I witness is how slowly I walk through life at the moment. Literally walking in a much slower pace wherever I go. And it is not because before I had to rush from one place to another. I hardly had an exact appointment where I have to be somewhere right on time. And jet I was walking unvoluntary fast and determined, even when I just took a walk. Even with no specific place to be and for sure no appointment to keep. It even annoyed me when - for example - the harbour promenade, my almost daily route, was crowded and people slowed my pace by simply not looking after one another, by not making space for others who want to pass. I also remember sitting on the bus being kind of stressed when something stopped or delayed the ride. Again, when I had no appointment to rush to, simply by - lets say - heading to Valletta for a stroll on my day off. 

Why is that so?

I guess I felt rushed most of the time.

Which is just ridiculous because I am probably the person with the less obligations in life!

Beside work and a few meetings with friends I don´t have any appointments or obligations. Nothing to run to, nothing to take care of or to complete - except I want it to do be done.

Now, and this is something I really know when it had begun, namely when I came back from Vienna, I don´t hurry anymore in everything I do. I don´t feel stressed or rushed. I walk slowly and on busses I just enjoy the ride till it is over ...

Another thing I witness since I came back from my trip to Vienna is: 

Usually I use ear plugs when I am in my apartment. Walls are very thin in Malta. Me, the Highly Sensitive Person, hear everything around me. The slamming of doors annoys and stresses me, people having loud phone calls or fights with their spouses distract me enormous and when my neighbours above me are cleaning their apartment I exactly know what they are doing where. 

That´s why I am using ear plugs, simply to not live in other people´s lives ... 

At the moment I regularly feel the urge to take those ear plugs out because I don´t want to be excluded from life around me anymore. 

So definitely something has changed tremendously.

The good thing is that I am able to pull all those strings together. Which is a thrilling thing to do by itself!

Because there are so many strings.

So many facts were leading to where I am right now. Small and big ones. Facts, which didn´t even seem very important at the time. Seemingly random situations, talks or thoughts from sometimes years ago are now fitting into the whole picture and all of the sudden make sense now that I was presented by the - temporarily - result. 

And there is one huge fact I am not able to stop mulling over at the moment:

What came first?
The plan or the heart wish? 

Are the heart wishes the starting point of what has to happen?

or

Is there a plan first and the heart wishes were implemented to show us the importance of it?

Let me ask the same questions based on a specific example:

What came first?

Did it start with my absolute heart wish to leave Austria and to live in the South, in endless summer, at the sea and then things started to happen for this heart wish to come true?

or

Was I supposed to leave Austria for everything that had to happen afterward and therefore I was given this heart wish of living in the South, in endless summer, at the sea?

Currently I am tending to the plan was there first and our heart wishes are the motivation to get us going into the right direction.

Our heart wishes are the indicator of what is really important to us. 

And I am talking about THE REAL heart wishes ... not about:
"I want to be rich and famous."

I also do believe that holding on to our heart wishes is the confirmation for the energies above and / or the energies within ourselves to keep us stirring into the right direction.

Sometimes I had a heart wish in my life which just disappeared by itself a while later. Once very important to me it ended up simply not to matter anymore.

Or, on the other hand, there is one of my big heart wishes left, which I can´t get myself to actively hope for to come true.

Does that make any sense? 

It just feels too important and too huge for me. So I kind of fear it to come true. Because the risk of not being right for me or me being disappointed in the end is far to high.  

Looking back on my heart wishes which already came true I can figure out a pattern of how it works.

There is this wish I am burning for.

Something I dream about so intensely it already makes me happy to only dream about it. 

Sometimes I am so longing for it that it hurts.

That dream is so important to me that I am already "living" in that situation. I am able to close my eyes and transform myself into that situation I am so longing for. With all my senses I already want to be there ...

Though I am very impatient and I can´t wait for it to happen I also know it has to happen at the right time. I know I would ruin everything when I try to force it to come true. 

But then, when it is time to happen, it just happens.

Naturally and effortless. 

With me being totally aware that it is happening NOW. 

So no matter if the heart wishes are first or there is a plan first and the heart wishes support the outcome ... it is important to have heart wishes!

Do you know what you are burning for?

Is there something on your mind, small or big, which makes you shake in excitement when you think of it?

Something that let your eyes sparkle when you talk about it?

Something that provides a warm and cosy feeling whenever you think about it?

Treasure those heart wishes.

They are an important part of your journey. 

I have always been capable to name my heart wishes. 

And sometimes a new heart wish popped up - totally out of the blue.

For example:

I´ve booked a trip to Madeira back in 2012 which I was so excited about. Then I had the chance to go on a trip to Malta before that one. I didn´t have much expectations about my stay in Malta but it turned out so amazing that I ended up not wanting to go to Madeira anymore ...

Which was very sad.

So I bought a travel magazine about Madeira to get myself into the right mood again. I sat down, flicked through the magazine, watched the pictures over and over and read the articles to awake my excitement for the approaching trip. One article pulled me in in a surprising manner. It was about a guy who offered trips on his boat for dolphin and whale watching.  

I read that article over and over and couldn´t understand why it left me so exciting.

I have seen dolphins in the sea before when crossing over by hovercraft from Gran Canaria to Teneriffa back in 1990. They are beautiful, of course! But why was I so excited about what I was reading? I even told friends with a trembling voice and tears in my eyes that I might be able to see dolphins and maybe even whales in Madeira! 

Also: of course whales are magical living beings. But I didn´t know why the thought of me being able to see one with my own eyes leaves me trembling and excited like hell!

Well ...

I flew to Madeira and I booked a dolphin and whale watch trip (not with that particular guy from the article but there were many option to book such trips). The staff on the boat told me that they guarantee us seeing dolphins ... but "seeing a whale is like winning the lottery" ... 

We went out on that boat and all of a sudden we where surrounded by dolphins, which was amazing and magical.

Then we kept looking out for whales ... which I thought was arranged by the staff to keep us tourists excited. 

And it really happened!

I saw a huge sperm whale right in front of our boat. 

I will never forget that divine moment!

And I have to confess I heard a voice talking to me right when the whale was in eyesight. 

"Look! Look very carefully. There is the whale. It was about to happen. You were doubting it ... but there it is. Look at it! Miracles do happen!"

Miracles do happen.

This was the hint, the lesson, the message wrapped up in that heart wish ...

So again:

Do you pay enough attention to your burning heart wishes? 

I do.

And I am very grateful for that!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!